everything is blur

I try to not thing about what I saw last night

I try not to think about what he wrote about her last night

I try to pull my blanket and close my eyes

still..I can't sleep

my mind is full of "?"

did i do something bad God? what should I do if its hurt now?

suddenly my eyes are wet

it can't stop. try to erase it but still can't stop

try to laughed but there's no hope

I can't smile anymore

I can't see anymore

try to calm down and take a deep breath

but is not working

i try to hang on.. waiting for a help..to get me out from this misery..

I know I'll be happy if he's happy

but not in this situation..this is way to hurt

and I can't stand anymore

but I can't scream to tell how hurt I am..

I just can stand in the corner

seeing him with her.. I have to face it..but my eyes can't see it with clear

coz its blur.. and its getting worst..

coz it won't stop even I stay strong..


but hey.. please stop this tears will ya..

its blur and I really can't see u.

where are u? why u look so blur in my eyes..